were more on the down side, I’m doing fine so don’t worry. I haven’t talked to many people about my mom passing away. I haven’t really felt like talking to anyone about the whole situation to be honest. I just feel i cant hold a conversation with someone about my mom. Not many people have dealt with suicide, and have also dealt with the suicide being one of their own parents. So it’s not a simple topic to talk about with friends. I don’t bring it up with people because i don’t think about my mom passing on a regular basis. I usually occupy my time with work, or hanging out with friends so i don’t dwell on certain feelings. Yes i feel sadness, regret, and anger with myself on how things went down. But I try to hold myself together for everyone. Yes a person shouldn’t hold themselves back from expressing their feelings. But I know my mom wouldn’t want me to dwell on her decision. At times i do feel i could’ve prevented her suicide. But at other times I didn’t know what my mom was going through, or what she was dealing with on a day to day basis. So I’ve been trying to continue with my life. Luckily i haven’t had any “your mom” jokes come my way. Even if they did I would still play it off, because if someone doesn’t know about what happened how could i become mad at the person.